clear specific flow...

Lack of clear specific movement...

Have you ever experienced these moments in your life, where a decision comes forward:

Your mind analyzes one side, takes a peek around the corner to the other, and yet still at the end of the analytical experience, you are left staring at the wall in utter confusion?

Well it may not look exactly like this, depending on your personality type and the level of inner clarity in your life. I know for me, when I am in my moments and times of complete flow, these decisions don't offer an ounce of confusion, for I am leading with my heart, and I am being guided by my spirit.

Now, let's take a moment and be real here:

When does that actually happen in your day to day life?

I know for me, I have learned tremendously over the years, but I am still FAR FAR away from having this complete flow throughout my days. I will say there are moments of complete clarity where its as though there was not even an initial decision I had to make and the door to lean into is staring at me with clear white blue light!

In these moments, I AM FOREVER grateful to myself, to God, to spirit, to however it makes you feel good to say for providing me the guidance to go without question or querry. (I am free of judgments upon you for how it is you feel to convene with the divine.)

However, you and I both know VERY well, that these moments do not happen all the time, and if they do, they often take quite a bit of internal work to get there...

So, lets discuss, what does that look like: INTERNAL work?

"Ok, Aaron, here you go again, talking that mumbo jumbo...

when all I am really looking for is clarity in my decision making process..."

Well, just for starters, let's say internal work is that inner dialogue you begin to have when you realize you are capable of even making decisions. You have become free of outsiders' influence and you realize your life is a set of infinite possibilities.

So within these infinite possibilities, is the one of choice, and with choice must be a way to clearly see all sides of the spectrum, and lean in with heart and mind wide open...

Now this "leaning" process is one where you may think or believe you see the "proper" door to walk into, when all you really want to do is just slightly lean, for an open door will open with poise and confidence and a stuck one will have many jagged spires along the way.

So, let's discuss again, just briefly that INNER work. Again, for me, this work is bringing my emotions to balance, which brings my mind to ease and allows my heart to step forward with grace and determination, knowing the clarity and poise of my inner spirit guidance.

I will preface this by including that I begin to understand this process a bit more clearly simply by beginning conversations with my inner self wisdom. I always like to think, believe and firmly know that within me is a presence, a spirit, and divine being, that has all the inner resources to make all these decisions properly and well. This understanding was clearly discussed and experientially practiced through my time learning at USM.

So, for all of you readers who may have an inkling of what I am discussing; Congratulations for beginning or possibly firmly knowing this beautiful divine being inside of you.

But wait, for all of you who have absolutly no idea to what I am discussing, I will say Congratulations even more, because you probably have not had any kind of life traumatic incident that has turned you inwards for profound answers from deep within your soul, and for this I would be very grateful for spirit is delivering you a life of less challenges and possibly more joy...

But for those of you who just want a simple tasting of what this may look like for you, it goes like so:

For me, I began this process intuitively when I was 17 years old stranded on a 1000 foot military pre-positioning vessel on its way to Iraq. ABSOLUTE JOY, let me express fully!

(can you hear my sarcasm? )

Well it was a immense challenge in my life, tearing me away from all constants and norms I once knew. But like all things, I learned a process of just simple internal guidance.

I sat down in front of my computer one night and began asking myself questions on the computer.

It was just a simple "So what did that mean when that happened when I was young?"

And "Why did my daddie feel that way?"

etc

etc

THIS PROCESS LOOKS DIFFERENT FOR EVERYONE.

However, do yourself a favor and if you have not tried this, try it tonight, or today, or whatever time of day you are reading this...

Open up a blank page..

Yes( right now, not later now!) with love I express my care :)

and simply begin...

it does not have to look any particular way and it can be expressed any way you choose.

But simply give yourself a few moments, or maybe and hour, to just breathe yourself into the page...

allow your hands to do the walking

your mind to rest in ease

and spirit to pour itslef through your hands,

onto the blank page before you.

let me know how it turns out,

for it may just be the beginning of something great!

For as your spirit speaks

and your souls guides its inner wisdom

the truth of your past

comes shockingly clear

into the vigilance and perserverance of your wading emotions

lying

dying

waiting for the moment when they can come alive and feel again

apart from your work

aside from your desire

the tools you need

are simply inside of you

waiting

desiring

feeling into the moment for you to be free

alive and jiving into the breathe of your brand new day

so let this day come alive

let your fingers do the walking

let your soul do the talking

and allow this inner spirit flow

to come alive into the beauty of your brand new page...

Thanks for all your thoughts and wisdom

they are loved and appreciated!