clear specific flow...

Lack of clear specific movement...

Have you ever experienced these moments in your life, where a decision comes forward:

Your mind analyzes one side, takes a peek around the corner to the other, and yet still at the end of the analytical experience, you are left staring at the wall in utter confusion?

Well it may not look exactly like this, depending on your personality type and the level of inner clarity in your life. I know for me, when I am in my moments and times of complete flow, these decisions don't offer an ounce of confusion, for I am leading with my heart, and I am being guided by my spirit.

Now, let's take a moment and be real here:

When does that actually happen in your day to day life?

I know for me, I have learned tremendously over the years, but I am still FAR FAR away from having this complete flow throughout my days. I will say there are moments of complete clarity where its as though there was not even an initial decision I had to make and the door to lean into is staring at me with clear white blue light!

In these moments, I AM FOREVER grateful to myself, to God, to spirit, to however it makes you feel good to say for providing me the guidance to go without question or querry. (I am free of judgments upon you for how it is you feel to convene with the divine.)

However, you and I both know VERY well, that these moments do not happen all the time, and if they do, they often take quite a bit of internal work to get there...

So, lets discuss, what does that look like: INTERNAL work?

"Ok, Aaron, here you go again, talking that mumbo jumbo...

when all I am really looking for is clarity in my decision making process..."

Well, just for starters, let's say internal work is that inner dialogue you begin to have when you realize you are capable of even making decisions. You have become free of outsiders' influence and you realize your life is a set of infinite possibilities.

So within these infinite possibilities, is the one of choice, and with choice must be a way to clearly see all sides of the spectrum, and lean in with heart and mind wide open...

Now this "leaning" process is one where you may think or believe you see the "proper" door to walk into, when all you really want to do is just slightly lean, for an open door will open with poise and confidence and a stuck one will have many jagged spires along the way.

So, let's discuss again, just briefly that INNER work. Again, for me, this work is bringing my emotions to balance, which brings my mind to ease and allows my heart to step forward with grace and determination, knowing the clarity and poise of my inner spirit guidance.

I will preface this by including that I begin to understand this process a bit more clearly simply by beginning conversations with my inner self wisdom. I always like to think, believe and firmly know that within me is a presence, a spirit, and divine being, that has all the inner resources to make all these decisions properly and well. This understanding was clearly discussed and experientially practiced through my time learning at USM.

So, for all of you readers who may have an inkling of what I am discussing; Congratulations for beginning or possibly firmly knowing this beautiful divine being inside of you.

But wait, for all of you who have absolutly no idea to what I am discussing, I will say Congratulations even more, because you probably have not had any kind of life traumatic incident that has turned you inwards for profound answers from deep within your soul, and for this I would be very grateful for spirit is delivering you a life of less challenges and possibly more joy...

But for those of you who just want a simple tasting of what this may look like for you, it goes like so:

For me, I began this process intuitively when I was 17 years old stranded on a 1000 foot military pre-positioning vessel on its way to Iraq. ABSOLUTE JOY, let me express fully!

(can you hear my sarcasm? )

Well it was a immense challenge in my life, tearing me away from all constants and norms I once knew. But like all things, I learned a process of just simple internal guidance.

I sat down in front of my computer one night and began asking myself questions on the computer.

It was just a simple "So what did that mean when that happened when I was young?"

And "Why did my daddie feel that way?"

etc

etc

THIS PROCESS LOOKS DIFFERENT FOR EVERYONE.

However, do yourself a favor and if you have not tried this, try it tonight, or today, or whatever time of day you are reading this...

Open up a blank page..

Yes( right now, not later now!) with love I express my care :)

and simply begin...

it does not have to look any particular way and it can be expressed any way you choose.

But simply give yourself a few moments, or maybe and hour, to just breathe yourself into the page...

allow your hands to do the walking

your mind to rest in ease

and spirit to pour itslef through your hands,

onto the blank page before you.

let me know how it turns out,

for it may just be the beginning of something great!

For as your spirit speaks

and your souls guides its inner wisdom

the truth of your past

comes shockingly clear

into the vigilance and perserverance of your wading emotions

lying

dying

waiting for the moment when they can come alive and feel again

apart from your work

aside from your desire

the tools you need

are simply inside of you

waiting

desiring

feeling into the moment for you to be free

alive and jiving into the breathe of your brand new day

so let this day come alive

let your fingers do the walking

let your soul do the talking

and allow this inner spirit flow

to come alive into the beauty of your brand new page...

Thanks for all your thoughts and wisdom

they are loved and appreciated!

Fire in your Sky

In the heat of our sometimes troubling days, it can be challenging to look back upon something through the eyes of appreciation and splendor. Often times I find myself looking at a particular moment in time through the eyes of introspection and sometimes regret or turmoil. However, I then remind myself, and begin to work through the emotional balancing process that can happen so naturally and freely to bring my mind, back in alignment with my spirit; recognizing and allowing the splendid perfection of the particular situation.

Now, this may all sound like a bit of giberish and play time to some of you, but honestly, what does this look like in your life....

For me, personally, this is simply taking a moment at the end of the day, or between coffee break at work, allowing my muscles to relax,

my mind to ease, and remembering the truth of who I really am: LOVE.

Simply

Naturally

All that there is.

But yes, some of you may say, this sounds all perfect, but I still have these very real emotions which appear to be running this human experience I am walking through.

And the truth is: They are. So the real challenge lays in balancing these emotions, within our human experience of life, bringing us back to the awareness that we are this beautiful divine being having a human experience, as it was always shared with me in the USM classroom.

"Ok, Ok Aaron, I get it, we are beautiful and

divine, but I still am having this damn issue at work!"

So, yes, we will ALWAYS continue to have issues, and growth and evolutionary moments for our life, but it comes to the point to decide on what we want to do in these moments of challenge:

Do we choose to grow?

Do we choose to curdle up inside, allowing these emotions to run our life?

Or do we sit back, letting others make the decisions for us, because we are too NUMB to feel the difference?

And the answer to all of these, my friend, lays in the beauty of the setting sun:

For remember, its your choice to know, to remember, to be the light that sets the

FIRE IN THE SKY!

As the day shifts into the epic splendor of the setting sun

the beauty of our past remains the vision of our nearest dreams

passing by with the swift kick of our passionate forthcoming aspirations

but when seeing the shift from light to darkness

we superimpose the beliefs of others

only to find the beauty of our own heart

remains the constant vigilance of our upcoming journey

for when we retire our false beliefs

and become victim to the splendor of the shifting light

we realize that this overcoming urge in patience

is simply the energy steering us into our perfect captivity,

one where our limitations fall away upon delivery of the dark,

back into the catalytic chemistry of this shifting and inspiring light

for one man’s loss of light is another man’s discovery of inner beauty

rummaged away when he realizes that this light that he has fallen for

will certainly return time and time again

when he surrenders his partial self to the simple settings of this setting sun...

A "make-believe world"

Well its been many months since my last post. I finished an epic four month trip through Israel, Russia, Georgia, Turkey, Egypt & Jordan. I had my camera, wallet & phone stolen from me three days before I was returning to the states (obviously, this individual needed these things more than I,) and now I find myself back at one of my jobs in Hawaii till January. I spend about half of my year working as a navigator for NCL on their Hawaiian Cruise ship "Pride of America." So, if you find yourself in Hawaii, be sure to drop me a message and we can catch a trail, a Noni smoothie, or some other kind of deliciousness that these islands have to offer. I feel incredibly blessed to be able to spend

time through these islands, with some friends on every island, it really gives me a great taste of this incredible Hawaiian culture.

After completing knee surgery last week, and feeling a bit down and under from the pain, and simply being worn down, I am beginning to

feel a turn around, as I plan out my next travel trip for a few months. I have been continuing to put together my next poetry book, and will be printing a few hundred copies of my first one "Transformation of Soul: A Poetic Guide to Freedom" for the holidays. So if you are interested in this one, learn more about it here, Transformationofsoul.com. I am continually updating my site, and have much more work to do, but essentially it is 120 pages of my travel photography from around the world, with my poetic free verse poetry infused into it. It's a perfect coffee table size book, sharing with people an experience to awaken something greater from deep within their soul. Some people have

profound experiences through photography, others

through poetry and writing, and with these, its a double edge sword, delivering a soul-filled deep meditative experience, sure to wake up the inner self of love within you.

So, as you travel about in your day to day world:

Have you ever noticed a feeling that maybe there is a feeling that is pulsating deep within your veins,

a pain that has no desire to leave your body,

could possibly just be a make believe experience created by the unequalized emotional state that is lingering through every cell of your body?

Well, I know I have, and here is just a few short poetic words about the experience of this “make believe," emotional world.

For your emotions are real in every way, but we all have a choice on how we would like to experience them..

I like to dive into them, find the other way of their tumultuous feeling

For these feelings are all one, driving us in deeper to the fuller purpose of their meaningful deliverance...

Through the entrance of our emotions

exists the unparalleled exit of our deepest darkest fears

being put forth into the conscious of our everyday reality

attempting to escape into the creations of consistency

which keep us rooted deep between the deeper

dimensions of our parted youth

for when these emotions emerge

and the past formulations of unprecedented years

formulate into the treason of our becoming wisdom

these emotions which once ran our way of being

have now dropped deeper into our wavelengths of immaculate inner beauty

waiting for the moment when we reach within

and scream “yes”

and “yes” I will be the light that yearns that brilliantly to shine upon the world

I will be the sunshine that discovers itself

wondering aimlessly amongst the trees of our inner passion

and so as the sun shines itself on this beautiful day of waiting chemistry

we find the time and the strength to be vigilant and perseverant

about how we come alive to the people of our day

How we learn to overcome these fantasies of our beliefs

and dive in deep, deep, deeper to the truth that is smacking reason and love

into the veins of our awaiting brilliance

shining

gliding

aligning itself to the perfect exit to the distinguishing of our make believe world.